Period of Adjustment

On my mind this Sunday morning is I must be willing to go through the Period of Adjustment for me when I get home.  I have a lot of ideas to try.  For instance…

I must be very careful.  Especially going to the toilet!

And no drinking wine. Lots of water!

Plus many other things.

Here in the hospital are a lot of people in the hall that wave when they walk by and I get three delicious meals a day!

So, why do I want to go back to the apartment?

Because I need to try to help myself again. 

I don’t want to live in a hospital anymore. So I need to go through a period of adjustment because I don’t have people to help me.

I could pay someone. 

That’s my delimma!!!!!

I don’t want just anyone but I need help

In case I fall again.

Fear of being alone and alive during the day and night without family or friends nearby. 

But I don’t want to die and I am scared to live. 

Oops. 

A thought …..

The TRUTH is, that all of the ‘STUFF’ here on earth we work so hard to buy and accumulate … does not mean a thing.

At the end of the day … people will be cleaning out our ‘STUFF’, going through our ‘STUFF’, figuring out what to do with all of our ‘STUFF’…

This ‘STUFF’ we’ve accumulated in our life.

The only thing of VALUE that remains, are the MEMORIES and what we deposit into others.

May we all learn to spend less time accumulating ‘STUFF’ and spend way more time making MEMORIES.

But that doesn’t solve my problem of fear.

Faith is the answer.

Believe in something 

What? I dont know

Pick something.

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“I know that I have less time to live than I have lived.

I feel like a child who was given a box of chocolates. He enjoys eating it, and when he sees that there is not much left, he starts to eat them with a special taste.

I have no time for endless lectures on public laws – nothing will change. And there is no desire to argue with fools who do not act according to their age. And there’s no time to battle the gray. I don’t attend meetings where egos are inflated and I can’t stand manipulators.

I am disturbed by envious people who try to vilify the most capable to grab their positions, talents and achievements.

I have too little time to discuss headlines – my soul is in a hurry.

Too few candies left in the box.

So I will go through a period of adjustment . Period! End of story !!!

Best, Jay