What is on my mind?  Easter.   Rebirth.  New.  Spring.   New growth.  Sound familiar?  It does to me.  What is really happening?  A lifelong friend died.  My brother-in-law is surrounded by hospice workers.  I am having difficulty getting a vaccine appointment.  The virus is outside my window.  I need groceries and supplies.  I am not drinking wine for several days.  My hair needs color streaks.  I need updated orthotics. Money is tight.  Restaurants and cafes are closed.  So, how am I dealing with life right now? 

I wrote this letter yesterday to those of us who are still alive:

“It is with great sadness that I am writing to you today   First time – since graduation in June 1955.   I cannot let the death of Larry Whitfield go unnoticed by me.  As your Class President, I want to honor the life and work of Larry Whitfield.  Never on that graduation day in June 1955, on the stage in the GYM at GHS did I expect Larry Whitfield to be the light who would carry us through year after year after year together.

With Larry, we have not only lost a class member and a relationship, but we have lost the paste and the glue that has held us all together over decades.  All we have had to do is to flow, grow, and adapt.  And sometime, show up.  But, Larry kept us remembering our youth, birthdays, names, faces.  Some years, he called me long distance to wish me a happy birthday.  I can still remember his voice over the phone.  So familiar. So warm and friendly.  Through good times and bad.  And, over the years, he did not let one of our deaths pass him by.  Or sickness.  Reminding us of times gone by over the decades.  And of good friends.  Through wars and pandemics.  Good times and bad.

Does all of that have value?  I think so.  Our memories.  During our mid-80’s.  Our cycle of life was great!  For the most part…..   And, many of us are having new beginnings this spring.  But, we have a lot to be thankful for this Easter Season.  We are good people for no reason.  Just because……  Larry was a good person, for no reason.  Just because……. So, as each of you heal, start over again, and rediscover life once more, say a little prayer and a thank you, to Larry Whitfield, for his years of service to the Class of ’55!

Sending much love,

Janet Jewell aka Jay W. MacIntosh”

The ONLY way I know how.  Looking for a pony in all this shit.  So, as is my MO, I joined a group that emotionally supports each other. As a result, I am saving memes that help and going to share my favorites in a minute.  

No politics.  That doesn’t’ mean that I don’t get politically challenged.  But I don’t want to write about it. I will leave the governing to the experts.

I want to spend my time worrying about dumping the garbage downstairs without a cane.  Watering the plants.  Finding someone to fix the patio door.  I have now had three “vascular accidents” that I know of.  I am working with my brain, helping it stay positive.  I am learning about brains, doing a daily French lesson online, isolation exercises, writing, moving, sleeping…….

Honestly, I have never been so challenged in my life.  Trying to solve new problems in new ways.  “The Lord helps Those Who Help Themselves.”  I don’t know the verse or section. But that one sticks in my mind.  So……  During these 3 days of EASTER, 2021, I share with you, my Readers and Followers and other Interest Folks, this rambling post on JAYSPEAK.   Memes that help me.

My birthday was March 30. These two helped me have a good day. That was nice.

Thank you to all of you.  As you can see, health issues are front and center for me. So be it. In the background, I am living in PARIS. So, I am looking forward to a lot of things. I have some pretty photographs of roses that I took a few years ago. This is one of my favorites. Roses make me happy. Taking photographs makes me happy. Writing this blog makes me happy. DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY. It helps that brain. Quantum Physics. Go for it!!!




Published by jjaywmac

Jay W. MacIntosh (born Janet Tallulah Jewell) is a retired attorney, actress, and writer from the United States, living in Paris, France. She is a member of the California Bar and selected to the 2018, 2019, 2020 Southern California Super Lawyers list. She holds a Master’s Degree in Drama from the University of Georgia and is a member of Phi Beta Kappa, Phi Kappa Phi, and Zodiac Scholastic Society. As an actress, she is a member of The Actors Studio, the Academy of Television Arts & Sciences (ATAS), SAG-AFTRA, and ASCAP, performing in film and television in the United States and France. Her published works include Journal of Janet Tallulah, Volume 1, Journal of Janet Tallulah, Volume 2, The Origins of George Bernard Shaw’s Life Force Philosophy, Moments in Time, Capturing Beauty, JAYSPEAK on the Côte d’Azur, and Janet Tallulah.


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