Fear of Change

I am going back to my apartment in Paris again because the hospital is says my health is good now.  It has been several months since I have tried to get to my apartment.  Can I be brave  enough????

Encouragement?  Prayers?  Luck?

A thought I like 

I wouldn’t really say that I’m the bravest soul out there. In fact, there’s been a lot of times when I didn’t know what tomorrow would bring or where I was headed in life.. And that was very unsettling to me sometimes. I’d pretend that I was okay with change and the unknown, but the truth was that it scared me to death. I knew where I wanted to end up and who I wanted to be, but it was the path ahead that remained unknown. I learned something along the way, though. Bravery isn’t the absence of fear, but the decision to keep going despite being afraid.. And that’s exactly where I’m at. I want to keep growing, evolving and becoming a better person.. I can see all the people saying I can’t change or focusing on all the things that I’ve done wrong and the bad choices I’ve made. They’ll say that I can’t change, I won’t be able to accomplish my goals.. And what I’ve learned is that they don’t know me at all. They’re too afraid to step outside their comfort zone and be brave in the ways that I’m choosing.. So they can’t fathom what I want and who I’ll become.. Because they’ll stay safe in their little worlds putting me down and criticizing me. Let them. I don’t need anyone’s permission and approval to find my wings and become the best version of myself. They can have their empty dreams of material things and lackluster nights spent doing the same things over and over.. Never changing anything but the car they’re driving or the clothes they’re wearing. I’m not here for such small dreams. I want more. I need more. And one day, when I’ve finally figured out where I’m headed and well on my way to happiness and fulfillment.. I’ll just look back at the ones who never really believed in me at all. “You said I couldn’t, right?” I’ll just smile with pride.. “Watch me now.” And I’ll never look back, Because my dreams never had expirations… and me? I will keep proving to myself.. That each and every day, I can be brave, strong and free, Becoming more and more, The person I’ve worked so hard to become. |ravenwolf 

Best, JAY