“You cannot swim for new horizons until you have courage to lose sight of the shore.” ― William Faulkner

That quote speaks to me. Maybe because Faulkner said it. Losing sight of the shore is scary. I read Facebook and feel guilty I’m not marching in the streets with a sign of some sort. My co-workers, my family, my friends are carrying the torch without me. But for now, I’m simply trying to get back up on the horse. Steve died five months ago, leaving a big hole in my heart. It knocked the wind out of my sails. I am having to practice living.

My French classes were great. I completed A1.1 of the Intensive, and will do Al.2 later. Wonderful being back in class. However, a wicked flu – la grippe – is going around Nice. I caught it. No problem. Gave me time to re-group, get rest, and look at a couple of condos. My owner/landlord is selling this place and wants me out at the end of my lease (September 30, 2017). Ugh.

SO, this afternoon, at 4:00 p.m., my owner’s real estate agents are coming to see this condo. She listed it with a trendy real estate company, located at the Port of Nice. She wants to show it for eight months!  What!!!! I decided to cooperate. I want to know whether it is going to sell sooner or later. Maybe the new owner wants a lovely, reliable tenant who takes care of the property. You never know. Many people buy properties in Nice as investments. And, a side note to my lawyer friend Fran, French real estate law is on the side of the tenant!! That works. The plot thickens.

 SO, this morning, I decided to get up, put on a business suit, put the suit jacket on the back of my home office chair, and go to work. Practice living. OK, so work is writing this blog, it is a start. I paid my California Bar dues. I am a member of CAALA (Consumer Attorneys Association of Los Angeles – Empowering Plaintiff Attorneys to Achieve Justice). I can work in the U.S. from here. U.S. clients. No French clients. But, U.S. paying clients – yes. From my U.S. home office that happens to be in France. I have several computers (2 of mine and Steve’s Mac), an online U.S. fax number, two printers (my lazer Brother MFC and Steve’s HP inkjet), a scanner, a phone. Paper. Pens. Staples. Paper clips. Why not? I have an Entertainment Law client in the States and am considering signing a Real Estate Law client who wants to purchase a home in France. Besides, I like to work. Always have. I guess I am still holding on to the shore. Or, maybe these are new horizons with the same shore. Or maybe this quote doesn’t apply.

Energy remains a challenge. I am hoping that is temporary. Or will get better with time and exercise and healthy eating and a better attitude. The Featured Image of this post was Steve’s favorite photo. He called it my “$1,000-a-night shot”. It was taken ten years ago – after we were married – by my favorite photographer of all time – Joan Lauren (http://www.joanlauren.com/). The art work was done by my friend Larry Mccrea, a wonderful photographer. 


Published by jjaywmac

Jay W. MacIntosh (born Janet Tallulah Jewell) is a retired attorney, actress, and writer from the United States, living in Paris, France. She is a member of the California Bar and selected to the 2018, 2019, 2020 Southern California Super Lawyers list. She holds a Master’s Degree in Drama from the University of Georgia and is a member of Phi Beta Kappa, Phi Kappa Phi, and Zodiac Scholastic Society. As an actress, she is a member of The Actors Studio, the Academy of Television Arts & Sciences (ATAS), SAG-AFTRA, and ASCAP, performing in film and television in the United States and France. Her published works include Journal of Janet Tallulah, Volume 1, Journal of Janet Tallulah, Volume 2, The Origins of George Bernard Shaw’s Life Force Philosophy, Moments in Time, Capturing Beauty, JAYSPEAK on the Côte d’Azur, and Janet Tallulah.


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