This morning I woke up upset, after hearing the news. I know better than to read news before bed. (sigh) I am writing this at this moment because I want to…… And, I have some pictures to post…… So what is going on? (This post is not intended as a “feel good” post. I apologize in advance to those who are offended. …..whatever…..) I was reminded last night of something that happened when I was much younger that I will never forget (forgive me while I go back into my past – which I seem to do a lot of these days. This is not a memory that I am very proud of.)
As a lot of you know, I was into metaphysics for many years. I went regularly to astrologers and psychics. (I know, I know. No comment.) Anyway, one of the astrologers that I went to regularly was a woman who lived in Burbank. Her name was Tish LeRoy (I think. It was a long time ago.) I also went to a psychic who was good friends with Susan Strasberg (daughter of Lee). And, all of them were very interested in Jim Jones. As a result, I went with them, wanting to be included with all of these “celebrities” and “all-knowing” people, to hear him speak at some place (a church of some sort) in downtown Los Angeles. We sat in the balcony and watched as Jim Jones “healed” people downstairs. (That was the day of Oral Roberts. Ugh.)
I must say that Jim Jones had the ability to convince people that he was really healing people. And, they were doing what he said and suggested. I was not convinced or otherwise. I was going along with the crowd to be included. At some point, I smelled foul and stopped going with the group to events. I still wanted to be included, but, for some reason, I stopped going. At that point, I was not thinking “cult” or “followers”. I only questioned the healing, the fake charades of crowd-pleasing and the gullibility of my new “friends”. I did not believe ANY of it. And, I wondered why they did. Did they know something that I did not know?
At some point, I knew that Tish and her daughters were moving to somewhere in Northern California outside of San Francisco to be near Jim Jones. What???? Why???? My concern was that I would need to find another good astrologer (for a couple of times a year).
Then, one day I was sitting at home, on the sofa, reading the newspaper. I was shocked to read about Jonestown, the People’s Church, Kool Aid, and mass suicide of over 900. I read the list of names and saw the names of Tish LeRoy and her two children. I sat in disbelief. It was in November 1978. It really upset me that I had attended his Los Angeles meetings. I felt dirty. Ashamed. And, gullible. I did not want my family to know. Ever. And, for the record, this is the first time I have let myself think about it for a long time. (This is not a memory I am proud of.)
Last night, hearing the words of Donald Trump about drinking disinfectant to help the virus, I immediately thought of Jim Jones and the Kool Aid – on a grander scale???? And I knew there would be a lot of people like Tish LeRoy, willing to follow his advice or “suggestion”. I often think of Tish’s two children. Blind trust. Trusting their mother. I thought of my children. And the responsibility of trust. Truth goes out the window. And, on my mind this morning are words that I read during the middle of the night, “You cannot escape the crazy in the White House.” “A deep state is being created. ” “There is no transparency.” Oh, dear me. Thus, much worry during the night…. Plus, an upset wake-up.
So, this morning, I got dressed and walked out the door. That was a start. These are photos that I am posting because I want to – in no particular order. And, a meme or two that I want to include. So, if you have stayed with me this far, thank you. I did not feel like doing any of it. But, I made myself do it anyway, and I feel better. I care.
As you can see, I bought myself some yellow tulips (at the grocery store) and two plants that I have named “Felicia” and “John”, for no good reason. (I read somewhere that a good thing to do is to buy living plants and give them a name….) Haha. Just go with it……
Best, Jay …. whatever…….