RAMBLINGS ON A RAINY DAY IN PARIS!

THIS IS ON MY MIND TODAY. I don’t like to walk or get caught in the rain.  And it is off and on.  So, I am going to spend time with you.  The stats on Jayspeak are booming.  I now have readers from all over the world. That is so amazing to me.  But I LOVE the audience and appreciate the forum.  12,300 visitors.  46,300 views.  So, I shall keep on keeping on until I stop. And I like doing it so I don’t plan on stopping anytime soon.  Thank you ALL very much.  So, what’s in store for today? 

First and most important, Janet Tallulah Jewell is back!!!! I, Janet,  took a leave of absence for 64 years, went into hiding under a different name(s), and I came back on June 3, 2021. Long-standing, unresolved issues of mine – which will never be resolved. I did not forgive. I will not forget. But somehow, I let it ALL go. I don’t know how long I have in this Life Journey, but the twists and turns have taken their toll.  I already feel better. A weight gone off my back.  That is my BREAKING NEWS for today. That is a biggie for me. I already see clearer. It wasn’t the name.  It was unresolved issues that I held against Janet. I had difficulty forgiving Janet for her mistakes.  It was a feeling of total and complete failure in all things.  Duh.  I was good at most things.  But, let me say that for now, I just am processing what happened 64 years ago.  And all the years in between.  And all the relationships in between.  So, bear with me while I just post some thoughts and some ramblings.   And a lot will remain unsaid although the message will probably be obvious.  Just let go for a minute and just BE for a minute or two.  That is what I plan to do. 

I need to see what I am doing while the dizzy spells begin to heal.   Janet knows what she is doing – when she stops hiding.  Jay did her best.  And, I have a lot of fences to tear down or mend and a lot of apologizing to my kids and some friends.   I will never be the same again.  Remember, you were here when it happened.  A MAJOR KALEIDOSCOPIC SHIFT.  A miracle has happened.

Bottom line – we have all come through life-altering experiences in this Pandemic.  I spent my time with myself in Paris.  And, talked to myself, you, some stuffed animals, and some plants.  Read, wrote, and watched British mysteries. AND, I am grateful to Facebook.  It had my back and was there when I needed it. Let’s begin. The look. Add LOTS of years.

Well, that pink tiger is so weird that I like it. I overthink everything . AND, I have already simplified my life and gotten rid of stuff, so that won’t happen. I don’t want to fly, I just want to walk and see and think again. Janet can see and think and walk. And, she is pretty. So, I need to work on all of that. Jay has had problems. Nuff said.

Best, Janet

(I have Jay’s back. FYI.)