THIS IS ON MY MIND TODAY. I don’t like to walk or get caught in the rain. And it is off and on. So, I am going to spend time with you. The stats on Jayspeak are booming. I now have readers from all over the world. That is so amazing to me. But I LOVE the audience and appreciate the forum. 12,300 visitors. 46,300 views. So, I shall keep on keeping on until I stop. And I like doing it so I don’t plan on stopping anytime soon. Thank you ALL very much. So, what’s in store for today?
First and most important, Janet Tallulah Jewell is back!!!! I, Janet, took a leave of absence for 64 years, went into hiding under a different name(s), and I came back on June 3, 2021. Long-standing, unresolved issues of mine – which will never be resolved. I did not forgive. I will not forget. But somehow, I let it ALL go. I don’t know how long I have in this Life Journey, but the twists and turns have taken their toll. I already feel better. A weight gone off my back. That is my BREAKING NEWS for today. That is a biggie for me. I already see clearer. It wasn’t the name. It was unresolved issues that I held against Janet. I had difficulty forgiving Janet for her mistakes. It was a feeling of total and complete failure in all things. Duh. I was good at most things. But, let me say that for now, I just am processing what happened 64 years ago. And all the years in between. And all the relationships in between. So, bear with me while I just post some thoughts and some ramblings. And a lot will remain unsaid although the message will probably be obvious. Just let go for a minute and just BE for a minute or two. That is what I plan to do.
I need to see what I am doing while the dizzy spells begin to heal. Janet knows what she is doing – when she stops hiding. Jay did her best. And, I have a lot of fences to tear down or mend and a lot of apologizing to my kids and some friends. I will never be the same again. Remember, you were here when it happened. A MAJOR KALEIDOSCOPIC SHIFT. A miracle has happened.
Bottom line – we have all come through life-altering experiences in this Pandemic. I spent my time with myself in Paris. And, talked to myself, you, some stuffed animals, and some plants. Read, wrote, and watched British mysteries. AND, I am grateful to Facebook. It had my back and was there when I needed it. Let’s begin. The look. Add LOTS of years.
Well, that pink tiger is so weird that I like it. I overthink everything . AND, I have already simplified my life and gotten rid of stuff, so that won’t happen. I don’t want to fly, I just want to walk and see and think again. Janet can see and think and walk. And, she is pretty. So, I need to work on all of that. Jay has had problems. Nuff said.
(I have Jay’s back. FYI.)
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I have made a few additions to this post. It still rambles and is in process but Janet has made peace with herself and that took a while.
Hey Janet! Welcome back. You were never “Jay” in my mind anyhow but I”m glad you are home…..Kay >
Thank you, Kay. But that is not the point. I did not like Janet and to not be her. But I have made peace with her- myself. I now love myself. I hope you know what I mean. Maybe I did not make myself clear. No matter. Thanks I will continue being both because I legalized Jay. But I now love and understand both.
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