WHAT IS ON MY MIND? Paris and Moi. Yes, Paris is opening up and it is fun with all of the activities, and I plan to do what I want to and can.  I have a lot of energy and desire and like the organizations of AAWE and WICE.  They have activities that look fun to me.  I am not interested at present in taking a course or going to a lecture.  That may change.  I am just happy that I am not as dizzy as before and can walk better now that I am taking it slowly. 

I plan to make new friends at coffee or lunch events and branch out. Not exciting but a plan, anyway. Each day, I plan to try something new. And, just emptying the garbage without a cane becomes a challenge. But, I do it anyway. Haha. And, I adore a delicious lunch with a glass of wine. I just got another shot in my left knee and the doctor (I like) told me to stay off it for two days and then go easy for 10 days, So, I am. And, I have new blood pressure meds that work even though an annoying side effect, so that is good.

Which makes me want to stress the importance of good health to you. Health is an inside job. I always took my health for granted. That is not a good idea. And I tried to teach my family the importance of food selection, and it was an uphill battle each day. As an actress, my body was my “Instrument”, and it was important to me in my career in film and television. Then, when I became an attorney, I pushed my body and pushed it. I did not gain weight. But good health is so much more than weight. It has to do with food selection. You must be willing to learn. And do what you know to be true. It is a lifestyle choice. I did that for years. Then, I stopped. Oops. So, even though I found good doctors to help me, I did not do what was suggested. I had a good team of doctors and ignored them. I asked questions and ignored the answers. I seldom got a second opinion. And I looked good on the outside and was letting things go on the inside. Now, when I see people on social media, I am shocked when I see their faces and eyes and bodies. They don’t look healthy.

Doctors are a problem in every city everywhere.  And they are a problem in Paris.  They are not all good, and they don’t all know what they are doing.  And many of them do not realize the importance of nutrition and its role in good health, so, I have tried to find doctors who will work with me – like a partner – since I arrived.  This is a big city.  Getting places is a challenge.  The metro or the bus or a taxi or Uber or…….   I sold my car when I left Nice.  And I don’t use the public transit system.  I could probably do buses, but I don’t.  I don’t know where those bus numbers go, or the areas and I am not interested right now in learning.  Maybe that will change.  Maybe. 

First, I tried to find good doctors in the 6e where I lived to 7 months, and now in the 16e, I am trying to find good doctors (that I like) in my current neighborhood for my various health challenges.   And each one is expensive.  And getting there is expensive.  It is hard walking places with a cane.  So, I have slowly begun to build my health team that I like (with trial and error) that is nearby.  It is in process.  I now have two doctors that I like – a knee doctor and a general practitioner.  Maybe a physical therapy man.  I am still deciding about him. I still need a dermatologist and a couple of others on standby.  I have a good pharmacist that I like.  She is helpful.   

So yesterday I had an appointment with my knee doctor.  I have found a female doctor that I like in the 16e who is willing to work with me as a partner with my health.  And I respect her.  So, I just got another shot in my left knee.  I got it yesterday.  And she told me to rest at home for two days and then go easy for 10 days.  That is what I am doing.  I am not interested in having a replacement on my left knee, if possible. And it is not so bad at present.  So, we’ll see.  She also wants me to do exercises that I don’t want to do – after 10 days.  So, I must try to work through my resistance. 

I don’t understand this resistance to getting stronger physically. I have never been one to just go to the gym. But I walked and walked and walked and jogged and jogged all my life. Why am I not trying to do that again? Why have I quit? Is it the Pandemic? I don’t know. I am giving that a lot of thought. Adapting to change. Willingness to change. Keep taking the next step. Day by day. Just thinking out loud…… A friend asked me last night why I moved to Paris? Well, it has always been Paris for me. I don’t know why. I certainly did not move here for the weather or to sightsee. But I am where I want to be. Now what? Trust Life to reveal the reason? Meanwhile, I shall continue to look for like-minded doctors and friends. It’s fun and interesting. My journey to Discovery.

I am not here to teach you anything. I am still working on my own health. DON’T WAIT TO START. I DID. And, I have a lot of things I want to do. But my life has changed. Less is more. I am asking a lot of questions. And I am looking up a lot of things. And, I have stopped pushing, pushing. Pushing. I am better (knock on wood.) I had a couple from LA who met me for lunch last week, and that went well. I can only have one glass of wine, and that matters with my dizziness and walking. No problem. So, slowly, I am building a new life that I enjoy.

Bottom line — I am glad I moved to Paris, and I love my apartment. It is fine for me. So, no problems other than a LOT of things that I am solving. And, I am delighted that I am living in the city of my dreams. It has always been Paris. That is not a late -in -life choice. I did not move here for the weather or sightseeing. Just living in Paris. Day to day in Paris. It does not matter whether you know you know what I mean. I am blessed.

Best, Jay




Published by jjaywmac

Jay W. MacIntosh (born Janet Tallulah Jewell) is a retired attorney, actress, and writer from the United States, living in Paris, France. She is a member of the California Bar and selected to the 2018, 2019, 2020 Southern California Super Lawyers list. She holds a Master’s Degree in Drama from the University of Georgia and is a member of Phi Beta Kappa, Phi Kappa Phi, and Zodiac Scholastic Society. As an actress, she is a member of The Actors Studio, the Academy of Television Arts & Sciences (ATAS), SAG-AFTRA, and ASCAP, performing in film and television in the United States and France. Her published works include Journal of Janet Tallulah, Volume 1, Journal of Janet Tallulah, Volume 2, The Origins of George Bernard Shaw’s Life Force Philosophy, Moments in Time, Capturing Beauty, JAYSPEAK on the Côte d’Azur, and Janet Tallulah.


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