I am starting over.  Today is August 2, 2020, and it is a new day for me.  Why?  OK, here goes….  Some of this is repetitive to those who “follow” Jayspeak.  But, a lot of it is not.

That said, during July, I had a bunch of tests plus an MRI to find out why I am so dizzy and feel so bad.  I was terrified to find out the results, hoping it was not a tumor.  One doctor told me I probably had a tumor in my left ear.  What??????  With the virus and trying to survive in general, I MAY HAVE A TUMOR?????   She did not know and wanted to find out. SO DID I!!  NOTHING.  They found nothing.  There is nothing wrong with me!   WHAT?? Nothing is wrong with me.??? Great!! Ok, all of this has been going on.  Terror, then relief.  Frustration, then not frustrated.

Main reason    ——  I am moving……. again. 

A bit of the back story – my deal with my current landlord (a friend who is back and forth between Paris and Nice) was that I could stay here until I found an apartment. It is not easy to rent an apartment in Paris for expats. Most people and real estate agents require a “dossier” and “guarantors” and things I don’t have.  AND, they don’t want a tenant to be 83. 

SO, in the middle of a pandemic – at the age of 83, and without dossier or guarantor, I start looking for another apartment.  Haha.  Welllll, my thinking was that owners wanted rent/income.  Therefore owners needed tenants to pay rent, and NO ONE was movin IN or OUT of France. No one was moving!  I could pay the rent. And, I contacted the owner.  BINGO!

Right away, I found one I like!  And yesterday, I signed all of the contracts and paid the security deposit and the first month’s rent.  It has some nature nearby (the Bois du Boulogne  –  “woods”) and one bedroom with two elevators and a balcony on the 5th floor.  It is in the 16eme arrondissement in the auteuil area (for those of you who know Paris).  I like the owners.  That will be my new home. I hope I get to stay put for awhile, anyway.

Now, for those of you who know the 6eme (busy and touristy and college town with the Sorbonne), the 16eme is very different (residential).  The lifestyle will be very different. I think that will be good for me. Why? After spending a LOT of time researching dizziness, I think a lot of it is emotional. I think I am longing for a lifestyle that feels right for me – large city in a nice residential area.  LA, living in Pacific Palisades or Brentwood or Westwood or Beverly Hills.  I hope so anyway.  I need to give it a try. 

So, my work is cut out for me.  I need to get a grip, get into regular physical therapy, balance my crystals, exercise, improve my outlook, wear a mask, wash my hands, …….  WHAT????  That is TOO hard.  ALL of Paris has a café society.  I must find a new café, fix the balcony for Missy, find new doctors, find movers, new physical therapy, new, new, new.  New neighborhood.  Begin again.   Ouch.  

I gave notice to my current landlord that I will be out by September 1,2020. So, it is all ahead of me…..again.

Actually, this is all good news.  I think Missy and I will both get better.  This Studio has been perfect for my 7 months here.  But, this is not for either of us.  Now, where I am going has problems, too, but so be it.  I will find a way.

More than you ever wanted to know.  So, Jayspeak will keep you informed.  I don’t want to post any photos at this point because they are not good.  And, I have not taken my own photos.  This is the front of the building.

Front of Building

This is a listing photo of the kitchen.



This is the ad that caught my attention:

“Auteuil district. Furnished (or unfurnished) 2 room apartment 47 m² on a quiet, bright street. Possibility of shared accommodation without hindrance – double access – Bathroom, wc and entrance – from the bedroom and the living room.
Standing building with garden, 5th floor, 2 elevators, Entrance-Library, Living room with sofa, Flat screen, telephone socket, table for 4, 4 chairs, buffet – Fully equipped kitchen, dishwasher, refrigerator, freezer, microwave, 4-burner gas cooker + oven, extractor hood, coffee maker, crockery, vacuum cleaner, ironing board and iron, bed and toilet linen possible – Bedroom with double bed, Bathroom (washing machine) and Dressing room – separate wc wash-hand basin ( cupboard). Collective heating – Building access 1st digicode, then a 2nd digicode, intercom, security guard on site. Close to all shops, Auteuil market.   Close to the Bois de Boulogne, close to Roland Garros.”  And the Auteuil Market!


That works!  Now, I know nothing much about this area, but it looks very interesting.  It has an amazing history.  And the Bois du Boulogne looks great.  So, to be continued.  Stay tuned.

Best, Jay















Published by jjaywmac

Jay W. MacIntosh (born Janet Tallulah Jewell) is a retired attorney, actress, and writer from the United States, living in Paris, France. She is a member of the California Bar and selected to the 2018, 2019, 2020 Southern California Super Lawyers list. She holds a Master’s Degree in Drama from the University of Georgia and is a member of Phi Beta Kappa, Phi Kappa Phi, and Zodiac Scholastic Society. As an actress, she is a member of The Actors Studio, the Academy of Television Arts & Sciences (ATAS), SAG-AFTRA, and ASCAP, performing in film and television in the United States and France. Her published works include Journal of Janet Tallulah, Volume 1, Journal of Janet Tallulah, Volume 2, The Origins of George Bernard Shaw’s Life Force Philosophy, Moments in Time, Capturing Beauty, JAYSPEAK on the Côte d’Azur, and Janet Tallulah.

5 thoughts on “STARTING OVER…….AGAIN……….

  1. You obviously have been going thru hell the past several months. I’ll bet the dizziness will disappear now that you have a plan in place and can stop worrying. Such luck to right off the bat find somebody who trusts you to pay the rent and not vandalize the place! Also glad for both of you that you will be able to keep Missy. The apartment sounds great and the couple of photos very attractive. Have you been able to actually see the inside?

    Pray tell, what in the world is/are balancing your crystals? That’s a new one for me. I just have the feeling that you will soon wear your new red dress! Assuming you haven’t yet since all of us have been so closed in. I think I have been wearing the same 3 or 4 capris and and T shirts for 3 months now. The month before that I wore the same 2 pairs of jeans and long sleeved T shirts. I’m sure ready to get out of this rut!

    Take care. Kay > >


    1. Hi, Kay. Yes, it has not been easy. The red dress is too long. I need to have it shortened, or I will trip over it. There is a tailor across the street, so I need to do that before I move. Yes, I have seen the inside of the apartment and spent time with the landlord to convince her that I am a trustworthy person AND American. So far, so good. Missy and the piano are still unknowns. So, I did not mention them. The apartment has some problems, but I will fix them as time goes by. The location is A+, and that is important to me. I will have to do a lot more walking. That is a problem. It is a residential street. And I need/want a separate bedroom. Lots of closet space. And, they are trusting me. That is wonderful!!! I hope this is the right choice, but at this age, I am not always making the right choices. I don’t even know what most of them are. Look up crystals. Too complicated to explain. Janet


    1. Thank, Debby. So do I! Thanks for all of your support. Maybe one of these days I will get it right! Maybe not. Love you.

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