JAYSPEAK

The most beautiful gift

She’s not cold or distant, she’s anything but everything they would have you believe. No, she doesn’t let anyone take advantage of her and she won’t let just anyone past her walls..but she has her reasons. Everything that she is and everything that she has learned has come from a life of struggle and heartache.. even the battles she’s fought to become who she wanted to be. She’s made bad decisions and she’s chosen the wrong people to love, but it never kept her from holding her head high and still believing in love. People that don’t try to understand her or see past her steely resolve will always misinterpret her facade as hostile or bitter, but they couldn’t be more wrong. She’s had to learn how to protect her heart from all the people that she used to let hurt her. She’s had to fight for her happiness every step of the way, so she’s learned to appreciate the joy in all the moments of life- both big and small. She’s had to claw, battle and dig deep to make it through some of her days.. But she’s still standing. More than that, she’s got a smile on her face and fire in her heart. Life can’t bring her down- it already tried that and failed. She’s been through hell and back, that’s how she became the fire that sparks her spirit. She’s not easy to love or quick to know, but she’s worth the effort- any effort- because a woman like her doesn’t come around often. Those who seek to love her must have patience, truth and authenticity in their actions or she’ll walk away. She’s been lied to, hurt and broken so many times that she’s lost count.. But that’s what made her strong, that’s what forged her strong will. She’s learned her worth the hard way after being put down, mistreated and taken for granted- she vowed long ago to never let anyone treat her that way again. People think because of her smile and gentle laugh that she’s just like everyone else.. And they’re so very wrong. She’s the fire you don’t forget and the diamond that sparkles after all the struggles. She’ll never settle, be disrespected or be treated as just another option. Rain or shine, bad days or good, she’s always true to her word and real in her actions. She doesn’t need a partner, charity or pity.. She knows who she is and what she wants.. Love- for herself, for her people and for the things that matter. So, when you meet her, just accept her as she is and love her how you can.. To know her, love her and be a part of her life is to appreciate someone very special. After all, the strongest people can often have the deepest love of all.. Cherish that love, for if she chooses to share that side of her with you, That’s the most beautiful gift of all: Her heart.

Happy Birthday Jay, Janet, Mom, Grandma and……

It’s wonderful to be 87 because it is old in experience and not too to old to have time ahead! Besides, I will always be young at heart

« Little Janet Jewell from Gainesville, Georgia »

Aires/Peach/Little chicken and more ……

March 30, 1937

It all started and wow what a great lifetime!!!!! I feel very blessed.

Love wins the Day

As children we’re convinced That monsters hide beneath our beds But as adults we soon realise That they walk the streets instead It’s not their face that’s monstrous It’s their loathing and their lies For it isn’t how they look – The monster’s who they are inside And at first we tiptoe round them Terrified to make a noise But slowly, very surely We are bound to find our voice But as fear gives way to anger And our loathing multiplies We start becoming monstrous And we think we’re justified But flames won’t put out fire Water will not halt a flood And we cannot stop the monsters By behaving as they would You see, anyone that’s ever Loved somebody else before Knows no matter how much hate we feel Love always matters more So though you’re brave to fight them And your courage makes you tough Don’t fight them out of hate But to protect the things you love And when life gets too scary Promise me you will make sure That you won’t become a monster But you’ll still learn how to roar.

JAY W. MACINTOSH
75016 Paris, France
Email: jaywmacintosh@gmail.com

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My Way🎶

Yes, I went down the wrong roads and made all the bad choices, I ended up in places I never should have been-in ways that tore my spirit apart. Truth be told, I don’t know how I got so down and out, Nor how I made it out intact and still whole. At the end of my rope and hating who I’d become, I hit rock bottom. Everyone counted me out and no one gave me a chance… Even I didn’t know how to dig myself out of the hole.. But you know, That’s the thing about a spirit that won’t give up. I don’t know how to quit and I’m meant to become more in spite of my rough start. It was never meant to be the end of my story, I just had to begin a new chapter- one where the Phoenix rises from the ashes. I pulled myself up, dusted myself off then fought and clawed my way back. I didn’t ask for help and no one offered me a hand, but that was what I needed to forge my own courage and build my own strength. My dreams didn’t have an expiration and I wasn’t going to quit on them or myself. I know I’m a mess sometimes, A bit of a broken soul with glimpses of beauty stashed in between, But I’m good with that. I made my way, earned my place and I’m fighting to make my story a success. I’ve got a lot of love to give and a passionate fire that can’t be quenched. Sometimes, you realize along the way that you don’t set out to be strong and courageous, But when you’re left holding the pieces of a life gone wrong, Those are the only choices you have left. It’s not that I’ll ever be heroic, strong and amazing like the fabled stories of heroes and lovers, But at least I’ll write my story my way, and that’s what matters most of all. I don’t have to set the world on fire, just be on fire for my life- The kind of flames that make your heart and soul feel totally alive. I may be beautifully broken and wonderfully imperfect, But I’m still standing. I’m still strong. I figured where I needed to go and what it would take to get there, so I made a choice: I didn’t ever go looking for a hero- I decided instead to become the hero of my own story.. One small victory at a time..my way…..

Best, Jay

Words that are Important

I know that I have less to live than I have lived.
I feel like a child who was given a box of chocolates. He enjoys eating it, and when he sees that there is not much left, he starts to eat them with a special taste.
I have no time for endless lectures on public laws – nothing will change. And there is no desire to argue with fools who do not act according to their age. And there’s no time to battle the gray. I don’t attend meetings where egos are inflated and I can’t stand manipulators.
I am disturbed by envious people who try to vilify the most capable to grab their positions, talents and achievements.
I have too little time to discuss headlines – my soul is in a hurry.
Too few candies left in the box.
I’m interested in human people. People who laugh at their mistakes are those who are successful, who understand their calling and don’t hide from responsibility. Who defends human dignity and wants to be on the side of truth, justice, righteousness. This is what living is for.
I want to surround myself with people who know how to touch the hearts of others. Who, through the blows of fate, was able to rise and maintain the softness of the soul.
Yes, I hustle, I hustle to live with the intensity that only maturity can give. I’ll eat all the candy I have left – they’ll taste better than the ones I already ate.
My goal is to reach the end in harmony with myself, my loved ones and my conscience.
I thought I had two lives, but it turned out to be only one, and it needs to be lived with dignity!

Love conquers All

Doing the work consciously and opening our minds and hearts to love and compassion is what heals.

Making the unconscious, conscious and allowing the flow of our emotions, thoughts and sensations is what heals.

Breathing through the need to understand and allowing the body’s consciousness to awaken and guide us back to earth, is what heals.

Accepting all versions of ourselves from the space of unconditional love, grace and forgiveness is what heals.

Allowing the answers to flow and letting go of our own need to control time, relationships and space is what heals.

When we show up every day with a fresh breath of faith and appreciation for a conscious and healthy soul and body presence in harmony with our Divine Essence, our Truth, God and Creation, we are healing, we are grounded and we allow ourselves to evolve and enlighten the path for others.

Healing needs Acceptance, Love and Accountability.

Healing is the consistent Question: What is this Situation trying to teach me?

Healing needs us to walk the talk.

Healing is the Mental Approach: Yes, I Can.

Healing is the Journey: Thank You.

Best, Jay

Another Sunday …….

Hello February / Goodbye January

I am soooo glad to see January go! It is hard to get a new year started when everything is changing, and I am getting settled into my apartment after 5 months in a hospital! Finally!!!!

But I am snuggled in and happy to back.

And most of my friends are on the internet

I have had to let go people who now don’t fit into my life. It’s not an attitude of arrogance or pride, but of congruence, you’ll keep loving them but with another perspective, from another level of understanding, understanding and awareness. It’s the hardest thing you’ll have to do in your life, and it will also be the most important: stop being attached to those who aren’t ready to love you. Stop having difficult conversations with people who don’t want to change. Stop showing up for people who are indifferent to your presence. Stop giving your love and energy to people who aren’t ready to love you back. I know your instinct is to do everything you can to win the good thanks of everyone you can, but it’s also the drive that will steal your time, energy, and sanity. When you start showing up for your life completely and completely, with joy, interest and commitment, not everyone is going to be ready to find you there. That doesn’t mean you have to change who you are. It means you have to distance yourself from people who are not ready to love you. If you are excluded, subtly insulted, forgotten, or easily ignored by the people you spend the most time with, you are not doing yourself a favor by continuing to offer them your energy and life. The truth is, you’re not for everyone, and everyone isn’t for you. That’s what makes it so special when you find the few people with whom you have a genuine friendship, love or relationship: you’ll know how precious it is because you’ve experienced what it isn’t. But the more time you spend trying to force someone to love you when they’re not able, the more time you’ll be depriving yourself of that same connection. He’s waiting for you. There are billions of people on this planet, and a lot of them are going to meet you on their level, with the vibration of where they are, connect with where they are going. … But the longer you stay engulfed in the familiarity of people who use you as a pillow, a back-up option, a therapist and a strategist for their emotional work, the longer you stay out of the community you crave. Maybe if you stop showing up, you’ll be less wanted. Maybe they will forget you completely. Maybe if you stop trying, the relationship will cease. Maybe if you stop texting, your phone will stay dark for days and weeks. Maybe if you stop loving someone, the love between you will dissolve. That doesn’t mean you ruined a relationship. It means the only thing that sustained a relationship was the energy you and only you put into it. That ain’t love. That’s attachment. The most precious and important thing you have in your life is your energy. It’s not your time that’s limited, it’s your energy. What you give each day is what will create more and more in your life. What you give your time to is what will define your existence. When you realize this, you’ll start to understand why you’re so anxious when you spend your time with people who don’t bring you, and in jobs or places or cities that don’t suit you. You’ll start to realize that the most important thing you can do for your life, for yourself and everyone you meet is to protect your energy more fiercely than anything else. Make your life a safe haven where only people who can care, listen and connect are allowed. Your not responsible for saving people. It’s not your responsibility to convince them they want to be saved. It is not your job to show up for people and deliver your life, little by little, moment by moment, because you pity them, because you feel bad, because you “should”, because you are obliged, because, at the root of all this, you are afraid that you do not Return the favor. It’s your job to realize that you are the master or mistress of your destiny, and that you’re accepting the love you think you deserve. Decide that you deserve real friendship, true commitment, and complete love with people who are healthy and prosperous. Then wait in the dark, just for a moment…. … And watch how fast it all starts to change.

Best, Jay

You start dying slowly ;

if you do not travel,
if you do not read,
If you do not listen to the sounds of life,
If you do not appreciate yourself.

You start dying slowly :
When you kill your self-esteem,
When you do not let others help you.

You start dying slowly ;
If you become a slave of your habits,
Walking everyday on the same paths…
If you do not change your routine,
If you do not wear different colours
Or you do not speak to those you don’t know.

You start dying slowly :
If you avoid to feel passion
And their turbulent emotions;
Those which make your eyes glisten
And your heart beat fast.

You start dying slowly :
If you do not risk what is safe for the uncertain
If you do not go after a dream
If you do not allow yourself
At least once in your lifetime
To run away from sensible advice

Don’t let yourself die slowly
Do not forget to be happy!

~ Pablo Neruda

Chilean poet who was awarded the Nobe Prize for Literature in 1971

Sharing the words by another author

I asked a friend who has crossed 70 & is heading towards 80 what sort of changes he is feeling in himself? He sent me the following:

After loving my parents, my siblings, my spouse, my children and my friends, I have now started loving myself.
I have realized that I am not “Atlas”. The world does not rest on my shoulders.
I have stopped bargaining with vegetable & fruit vendors. A few pennies more is not going to break me, but it might help the poor fellow save for his daughter’s school fees.
I leave my waitress a big tip. The extra money might bring a smile to her face. She is toiling much harder for a living than I am.
I stopped telling the elderly that they’ve already told that story many times. The story makes them walk down memory lane & relive their past.
I have learned not to correct people even when I know they are wrong. The onus of making everyone perfect is not on me. Peace is more precious than perfection.
I give compliments freely & generously. Compliments are a mood enhancer not only for the recipient, but also for me. And a small tip for the recipient of a compliment, never, NEVER turn it down, just say “Thank You.”
I have learned not to bother about a crease or a spot on my shirt. Personality speaks louder than appearances.
I walk away from people who don’t value me. They might not know my worth, but I do.
I remain cool when someone plays dirty to outrun me in the rat race. I am not a rat & neither am I in any race.
I am learning not to be embarrassed by my emotions. It’s my emotions that make me human.
I have learned that it’s better to drop the ego than to break a relationship. My ego will keep me aloof, whereas with relationships, I will never be alone.
I have learned to live each day as if it’s the last. After all, it might be the last.
I am doing what makes me happy. I am responsible for my happiness, and I owe it to myself. Happiness is a choice. You can be happy at any time, just choose to be!

I decided to share this for all my friends. Why do we have to wait to be 60 or 70 or 80, why can’t we practice this at any stage and age?

Originally shared to me by my cousin Marie.

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