JAYSPEAK

Half of me is filled with bursting words
and half of me is painfully shy.

I crave solitude yet also crave people.

I want to pour life and love into everything
yet also nurture my self-care and go gently.

I want to live within the rush of primal, intuitive decision, yet also wish to sit and contemplate.

This is the messiness of life – that we all carry multitudes, so must sit with the shifts.

We are complicated creatures, and ultimately,
the balance comes from this understanding.

Be water.
Flowing, flexible and soft.
Subtly powerful and open.
Wild and serene.
Able to accept all changes,
yet still led by the pull of steady tides.

It is enough.

~Victoria Erickson

Best, Jay

I know you’ve wanted your life to be different for some time now, but it’s hard taking that first step, I know.

You’ve been stuck in a rut for too long and everything you have has been crying out for change.

You know what you have to do, maybe even know some of what it may take.

Maybe you’re afraid or unsure if you have what it takes to change..

Whether it’s your life, your friends, your career..whatever you’re facing, you can do this.

I won’t tell you it will be easy, or that it won’t hurt a little, but anything worth having won’t be painless.

Change hurts, growth can be painful.

But you’re worth it.

Your happiness is worth it.

You’ve been selling yourself short and settling for far too long.

Stop, step back and take a deep breath.

This is your life and you deserve more.

It’s okay to be afraid, it’s okay to be unsure ..but it’ll never be okay to stay in a room place you weren’t meant to be.

Take back your life, stand up strong and take responsibility for your happiness.

No more excuses or settling..you’re not a victim of your life.

You’re a beautiful, vibrant soul full of love and hope, so stop dwelling in what has been and start taking the small steps to a better you and a happier future.

Each day that passes is another chance lost to start your journey.

This is your time and your new chapter.

Pick up the pen and start writing the brightest and happiest story of your life..

Let go of the guilt, the fear and the defeat.

Get up and do something about your life, because only you know what will make you happy.

Don’t have a life full of regret and “what if.”

Take this chance to become who you were meant to be and seek your happiness.

It’s all right there waiting for you- you’re not alone and you got this.

Cast off those claws that you’ve used to dig your way out of rock bottom and discover the wings that have been waiting for you all along.

Start today, start small,

And most of all, it all starts with you.

|ravenwolf

Best, Jay

I had blood in my head between the rim and the brain and a special surgery was required.ugh

Well ,,, I am not giving up…

Yet!

I know you’ve wanted your life to be different for some time now, but it’s hard taking that first step, I know.

You’ve been stuck in a rut for too long and everything you have has been crying out for change.

You know what you have to do, maybe even know some of what it may take.

Maybe you’re afraid or unsure if you have what it takes to change..

Whether it’s your life, your friends, your career..whatever you’re facing, you can do this.

I won’t tell you it will be easy, or that it won’t hurt a little, but anything worth having won’t be painless.

Change hurts, growth can be painful.

But you’re worth it.

Your happiness is worth it.

You’ve been selling yourself short and settling for far too long.

Stop, step back and take a deep breath.

This is your life and you deserve more.

It’s okay to be afraid, it’s okay to be unsure ..but it’ll never be okay to stay in a room place you weren’t meant to be.

Take back your life, stand up strong and take responsibility for your happiness.

No more excuses or settling..you’re not a victim of your life.

You’re a beautiful, vibrant soul full of love and hope, so stop dwelling in what has been and start taking the small steps to a better you and a happier future.

Each day that passes is another chance lost to start your journey.

This is your time and your new chapter.

Pick up the pen and start writing the brightest and happiest story of your life..

Let go of the guilt, the fear and the defeat.

Get up and do something about your life, because only you know what will make you happy.

Don’t have a life full of regret and “what if.”

Take this chance to become who you were meant to be and seek your happiness.

It’s all right there waiting for you- you’re not alone and you got this.

Cast off those claws that you’ve used to dig your way out of rock bottom and discover the wings that have been waiting for you all along.

Start today, start small,

And most of all, it all starts with you.

|Best, Jay

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0n my mind this week is that I have a problem with impatience and anger and call it my Achilles Heel any suggestions on what to do ?

I hope no one ever promised you it would be easy….because the most important journey, my love is done alone. 

You’ll go through phases of sadness when you realize that things should have been different. You’ll struggle with some realities you never knew before. 

You’ll uncover secrets that will leave you wishing had stayed buried. 

But in the end, the journey to finding who you truly are….that starts now, regardless of your past, regardless how you were raised, regardless of previous relationships. 

Right here, in this very moment is where you decide your next step, you decide your story everyday. 

It’s a new day and a brand new beautiful week, so do the necessary work to let go of the past, to use what you learn as possible lessons moving forward, but don’t dwell there. 

Tell your mind to move along. 

Experience the sadness, even the happiness of past memories and then leave them where they are. ~

~Amy~

Coffee, Poetry and a Lil Bit of Me

Anger_

Your soul knows what you need. It knows which way to go. Listen carefully to those uneasy feelings you get. Those are signs. Notice headaches, and if your gut hurts or when you’re extra tired. Certain relationships will become draining. Or you’ll notice you’ve become addicted to their recognition and validation so much that you forget your internal compass. Your soul knows this and will relentlessly steer you to your true path. 

You will likely need to leave a few folks behind because they’ve clipped your wings with assumptions and labels. You’ve played the game for so long that they see you through their eyes, and it isn’t pretty. It’s tinted with pity, envy, jealousy, or anger. This is a sneaky, sticky form of dominance to keep you small. It will hurt when you recognize this, but staying will keep you trapped, and you’ll hurt more.

Best Jay

On my mind is that I don’t like hospitals. 

It is like a little city of busy people with blinders on, doing their jobs and not looking at anything else. Just showing up and clocking in and out. Robots.

I want out!  Only there is no door…

It is a trap.

I suspect foul play. To get government money.  I have seen this before as an attorney and could not prove it ..

So many questions and difficult to prove 

So I am sorry I fell in my apartment and some one called an ambulance that took me to a hospital.

Everyone wants evidence.  

In the emergency room someone stole my money and gave me medicine without checking my allergies.

So don’t fall asleep at the wheel.

It is all a risk.

Steve did it and he is dead 

Daddy did it and he is dead.

Rough seas make good sailors.

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Ugh!

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I hope no one ever promised you it would be easy….because the most important journey, my love is done alone. 

You’ll go through phases of sadness when you realize that things should have been different. You’ll struggle with some realities you never knew before. 

You’ll uncover secrets that will leave you wishing had stayed buried. 

But in the end, the journey to finding who you truly are….that starts now, regardless of your past, regardless how you were raised, regardless of previous relationships.

Right here, in this very moment is where you decide your next step, you decide your story everyday. 

It’s a new day and a brand new beautiful week, so do the necessary work to let go of the past, to use what you learn as possible lessons moving forward, but don’t dwell there. 

Tell your mind to move along. 

Experience the sadness, even the happiness of past memories and then leave them where they are. 

~Amy~

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Your soul knows what you need. It knows which way to go. Listen carefully to those uneasy feelings you get. Those are signs. Notice headaches, and if your gut hurts or when you’re extra tired. Certain relationships will become draining. Or you’ll notice you’ve become addicted to their recognition and validation so much that you forget your internal compass. Your soul knows this and will relentlessly steer you to your true path. 

But don’t go to the hospital !!! 

Best, Jay

On my mind this Sunday morning is I must be willing to go through the Period of Adjustment for me when I get home.  I have a lot of ideas to try.  For instance…

I must be very careful.  Especially going to the toilet!

And no drinking wine. Lots of water!

Plus many other things.

Here in the hospital are a lot of people in the hall that wave when they walk by and I get three delicious meals a day!

So, why do I want to go back to the apartment?

Because I need to try to help myself again. 

I don’t want to live in a hospital anymore. So I need to go through a period of adjustment because I don’t have people to help me.

I could pay someone. 

That’s my delimma!!!!!

I don’t want just anyone but I need help

In case I fall again.

Fear of being alone and alive during the day and night without family or friends nearby. 

But I don’t want to die and I am scared to live. 

Oops. 

A thought …..

The TRUTH is, that all of the ‘STUFF’ here on earth we work so hard to buy and accumulate … does not mean a thing.

At the end of the day … people will be cleaning out our ‘STUFF’, going through our ‘STUFF’, figuring out what to do with all of our ‘STUFF’…

This ‘STUFF’ we’ve accumulated in our life.

The only thing of VALUE that remains, are the MEMORIES and what we deposit into others.

May we all learn to spend less time accumulating ‘STUFF’ and spend way more time making MEMORIES.

But that doesn’t solve my problem of fear.

Faith is the answer.

Believe in something 

What? I dont know

Pick something.

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“I know that I have less time to live than I have lived.

I feel like a child who was given a box of chocolates. He enjoys eating it, and when he sees that there is not much left, he starts to eat them with a special taste.

I have no time for endless lectures on public laws – nothing will change. And there is no desire to argue with fools who do not act according to their age. And there’s no time to battle the gray. I don’t attend meetings where egos are inflated and I can’t stand manipulators.

I am disturbed by envious people who try to vilify the most capable to grab their positions, talents and achievements.

I have too little time to discuss headlines – my soul is in a hurry.

Too few candies left in the box.

So I will go through a period of adjustment . Period! End of story !!!

Best, Jay