I am developing my emotional intelligence


What ????

Yes,  you heard me. My emotional intelligence!!!!!

And the topic for today’s symposium is the alpha and omega in my famous father at the same time- a drunk and gambler and womanizer and a family man who loved people and wanted to help others and his family at the same time. I am an adult child of an alcoholic and Jesse jewell’s baby chicken with special privileges all at the same time . And I have come Full Circle….

What comes around goes around or visa versa…

This is what is on my mind-in my little corner of the universe / we can be both good and bad at the same time, Duh.  .the Alpha  and Omega \ yen and yang \ beginning and ending / Full Circle – All at the same time. Simultaneously. I have a new reality as it applies to me. 

Let me explain,..

I have been upset and overthinking in my apartment in Paris about my father . And my mother and my sisters and and and…but in this post I am focusing on my father –  Jesse Dickson Jewell. 

My parents were terrible AND  wonderful and my father was a womanizer and gambler and drunk most of the time AND he loved his family and his town and the farmers and his mother and that area of the South .  ALL at the same time.

And I loved my mother and hated her and father and family and sisters and friends and on and on ad infinitum  

But this post is about Daddy and my life as an adult child of an alcoholic AND Jesse Jewell’s adorable baby chicken all at the same time.

The chickens have come home to roost. And a home is where the heart is – HERE IN THIS APARTMENT IN PARIS FROM MY VIEW OUT MY WINDOW. IN ME!!!

FYI – the blue grey pitcher cover photo is a photo of a small pitcher in a collection I had on a shelf by my bed when I was five years old . I kept it all these years because it was my favorite .

You can fill in the blanks and connect the dots however you want…….

And now some funnies…..

Best, Jay


I have had some unexpected expenses and need you help.


Published by jjaywmac

Jay W. MacIntosh (born Janet Tallulah Jewell) is a retired attorney, actress, and writer from the United States, living in Paris, France. She is a member of the California Bar and selected to the 2018, 2019, 2020 Southern California Super Lawyers list. She holds a Master’s Degree in Drama from the University of Georgia and is a member of Phi Beta Kappa, Phi Kappa Phi, and Zodiac Scholastic Society. As an actress, she is a member of The Actors Studio, the Academy of Television Arts & Sciences (ATAS), SAG-AFTRA, and ASCAP, performing in film and television in the United States and France. Her published works include Journal of Janet Tallulah, Volume 1, Journal of Janet Tallulah, Volume 2, The Origins of George Bernard Shaw’s Life Force Philosophy, Moments in Time, Capturing Beauty, JAYSPEAK on the Côte d’Azur, and Janet Tallulah.


  1. You are an amazing, talented author. I loved the blog and I thought the cartoons were all good. I got my morning chuckles and also some food for thought about your childhood. I hope you have a wonderful weekend and much love to you. 🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹


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